Sermon: 18 February 2024 LENT 1B
Text: Mark 1.9-15
Theme: The Desert journey begins
Unlike his counterparts, Matthew and Luke, Mark offers his readers no colourful details about Jesus’s experience in the wilderness. We don’t learn what the specific temptations were, or how Jesus responded to them. Mark doesn’t even assure us that Jesus “passed” his desert test. All he gives us are two abrupt sentences: “And the Spirit immediately drove him out into the wilderness. He was in the wilderness forty days, tempted by Satan; and he was with the wild beasts; and the angels waited on him.”
I don’t know about you, but this terse version of events leaves me buzzing with questions. How exactly did Jesus spend his time? Was he tempted 24/7? Did he walk for k’s each day, or camp out in one spot? Where did he sleep? What was the silence like, hour after hour after hour? Did he break it up by humming, laughing, or shouting? Did he star gaze? Play with birds? Chase lizards? As the days stretched on and on, did he fear for his life? Question his sanity? Wish to die?
Mark — given, as ever, to brevity — leaves all of these questions unanswered. But the few details he does include in his account are telling, and they give us much to cling to as we face deserts in our own lives. I’d like to focus on three:
Jesus didn’t choose the wilderness.
The struggle is long.
There are angels in the desert.
First, Jesus didn’t meander into the wilderness. He didn’t schedule a National Geographic expedition, or plan a wilderness marathon to rack up Fitbit steps. According to Mark, the Spirit “drove” Jesus into the wilderness. “You only go there if you have to.”
Oddly enough, I find this detail comforting. Why? Because it’s true — it rings true. We don’t choose to enter the wilderness. We don’t volunteer (generally) for pain, loss, danger, or terror. But the wilderness happens, anyway. Whether it comes to us in the guise of a hospital waiting room, a thorny relationship, a troubled child, a sudden death, or a crippling panic attack, the wilderness appears, unbidden and unwelcome, at our doorsteps. It insists on itself. And sometimes — can we bear to ponder this? — it is God’s own Spirit who drives us into the parched landscape amidst the wild beasts. Does this mean that God wills bad things to happen to us? That God wants us to suffer? No. Does it mean that God can redeem even the most barren periods of our lives? That our deserts can become holy even as they remain dangerous? Yes. I believe so.
I write these lines hesitantly, too aware of how Christians have suffered under the false teaching that God authors human pain and suffering for some greater good of God’s own devising. God does not. But we walk a fine line, nevertheless. Sometimes our journeys with God include dark and desolate places. Not because God takes pleasure in our pain, but because we live in a fragile, broken world that includes deserts, and because God’s modus operandi is to take the things of death, and wring from them resurrection.
Second, our wilderness journeys sometimes last a long, long time. I’ve never spent forty days in solitude and silence, much less in a state of physical deprivation and danger, but I can’t imagine that Jesus’s time in the wilderness passed by quickly. The sense I get from Mark’s gospel is that Jesus strove and wrestled. That he experienced each day as a battle of mind, spirit, and body. Maybe the hours stretched into years, and the nights felt endless. Maybe the landscape itself mocked his weary senses, its unvarying bleakness breaking his heart.
For those of us who live in quick-fix cultures, this aspect of the wilderness can be especially trying, because we both tire and despair easily. Why, we ask, is this pain not ending? Why are our prayers going unanswered? Where is God?
But maybe we need to ask a harder question: why did Jesus need the wilderness? Why do we?
Some have suggested that temptation (Jesus’s and ours) is always about identity — about who we are and whose we are: “Identity. It’s always God’s first move. Before we do anything wrong and before we do anything right, God has named and claimed us as God’s own. But almost immediately, other things try to tell us who we are and to whom we belong: capitalism, the weight-loss industrial complex, our parents, kids at school — they all have a go at telling us who we are. But only God can do that. Everything else is temptation.”
This week’s Gospel reading begins with Jesus’s baptism. According to Mark, the heavens were torn open, and God announced Jesus’s identity loud and clear: "You are my Son, the Beloved; with you I am well pleased." But what happened to that certain sense of identity and belonging, I wonder, as Jesus’s wilderness wanderings stretched into week two, week three, week four? Did it begin to waver? Did the Son of God have to keep reminding himself of who he was? Did his Father have to nudge him each time he forgot? “Can you hear me now? Can you hear that you are precious and beloved now? Can your identity as my own hold in this oppressive silence, here, now?"
Sometimes we as Christians have problems with the incarnation - though we affirm it in our creeds and our worship, we resist examining its implications too closely. To linger too long over what Jesus’s enfleshed life might have looked, smelled, tasted, and felt like? To consider the possibility that the Son of God might have wrestled with his identity? His vocation? His relationship to his Father? To argue that the greatest danger Jesus faced in the wilderness was not starvation but amnesia? That might be too much. It might be heretical.
But it’s true. At his baptism, Jesus heard the absolute truth about who he was. That was the easy part. The much harder part came in the wilderness, when he had to face down every vicious assault on that truth. When the memory of his Father’s voice from heaven faded, and he had to learn how to be God’s beloved in a lonely wasteland.
Maybe we, like Jesus, need long stints in the wilderness to learn what it really means to be God’s beloved. Because the unnerving fact is: we can be beloved and uncomfortable at the same time. We can be beloved and unsafe at the same time. In the wilderness, the love that survives is flinty, not soft. It is not sentimental. Learning to trust it takes time. Third, there were angels in the wilderness. This, too, is a startling and comforting truth — one that we can recognise if we open our eyes and take a good look around. Somehow, somewhere, help comes. Rest comes. Solace comes. Granted, our angels don't always appear in the forms we might prefer, but they come.
I wonder what Jesus’s angels looked like. Did they manifest as winged creatures from heaven? As comforting breezes across the sun-scorched hills? As a trickle of water for his parched throat? As a wild animal that surprised him with a tame and tender gaze? As a rock to lay his head upon? As the swirl of constellations on a clear, cloudless night? What do our angels look like? What have they looked like in the past? When they ministered to us, held us, embraced us, did we hear a new version of God’s voice, calling us God’s beloved? If yes, then what would it be like to enter into someone else’s barren desert now, and become an angel for their journey?
“The wilderness is a dangerous place. You only go there if you have to.” This week, we begin the wilderness journey of Lent. We start on Ash Wednesday, acknowledging via the imposition of ashes that we will surely die, that our bodies will fail us no matter how cleverly we attempt to preserve them with medicine, exercise, cosmetics, or mindfulness. From that austere beginning, we venture into the wilderness like Abraham, like Moses, like Elijah, and like Jesus. With ashes on our foreheads and mortality on our minds, we begin a hazardous journey inward, a journey to learn our true names, our true identities.
I pray that we’ll walk with courage into the deserts we can’t choose or avoid. I pray that our long stints in the wilderness will teach us who we really are. And I pray that when angels in all their sweet and secret guises whisper “beloved” into our ears, we will listen, and believe them. The Lord be with you